That's really helpful, thank you. I will screw my courage to the sticking post and say yes, even though I'm still reluctant. But not until I've navigated the important college deadline next week that I found out about by accident three days ago.
Can't say as I feel particularly engaged, but maybe that will change. And if it doesn't, I can always stop.
For me, I find that dealing with my own fallibility is so much harder than others'. And when I'm triggered by other people, it's almost always because they have some quality that I dislike or repress or want to change in myself.
Oh God I recognise that. I get annoyed with people for being flakey and unreliable, which is a major trait I have. And yeah, I am much harder on myself than anyone else is, and than I am on anyone else.
I suspect that some of this is human nature, and I'm not even sure I'd want to change it in its entirety - I'm nervous of going easy on myself. But I'm sure that I also cause myself unnecessary pain and sometimes I make it harder for myself to do things because I'm beating up and beaten up. It's very hard to put this down, though.
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Can't say as I feel particularly engaged, but maybe that will change. And if it doesn't, I can always stop.
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