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So last night I got sent home from work after fainting at my desk whilst complaining of chest pain. My dad came to pick me up, and took my pulse and did various other first aidy things and decided that I probably wasn't having a heart attack (yay) so took me home. I spent a fitful night of yet more nightmares and the chest pain was still there this morning, so I went to the doctor.

There now follows a link to storify, as I have already told this tale on twitter. And can't be arsed typing it all out again. And I'm not embedding storify on here because it looks AWFUL and takes ages to scroll past for those who have already watched it unfold on twitter.

Basically what it boils down to is this: if I get mega-stressed and I can't utilise either of my usual coping mechanisms* my intercostal muscles will pull so tight that they will tear my ribcage away from my sternum. I do not see the evolutionary advantage in this capability of the human body, but apparently it's pretty common.

So I have to take a couple of days off work (which work have been very gracious about) and avoid stress. Trying to avoid stress is going to be very stressful, I think... -_-" For one thing, how do I stop the nightmares? Any tips gratefully recieved.

In slightly cheerier news, I got the results back from being a responsible poly person and going to get tested today, cos I know you're all waiting with bated breath for this. As expected, I am all clear on all tests.

*one of which is admittedly healthier than the other. Neither of which are available to me at work.

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 03:55 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] andrewhickey.info
For stopping nightmares, especially ones of the type you're having, imagery rehearsal apparently has something like a 70% success rate -- http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/features/when-nightmares-wont-go-away?page=2

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 04:10 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] andrewhickey.info
I know, and I can't begin to imagine how hard it would be for you. But on the other hand, that technique does seem to be particularly suited for that type of nightmare, and to reduce general PTSD symptoms as well as nightmares. If you're seeing any therapists, maybe discuss ways you could do it with them?

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 04:14 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] andrewhickey.info
I'm the same way. I found computer-aided CBT far more helpful than human-aided CBT for precisely that reason. And yes, it does make it more difficult to actually sort your problems out if you know a bit about what's going on behind the curtain :-/

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 04:30 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] andrewhickey.info
Maybe you could see if your local authority offers computerised CBT? I found that much more effective, for precisely that reason -- though still not hugely so.
If not, or if that doesn't appeal, perhaps try meditation? It seems to have helped both Holly (although she didn't keep it up) and Debi...

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 04:14 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rmc28
That sounds like a fun and terrifying superpower.

Take care.

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 06:33 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] hollymath
Im sorry you've been mega-stressed. I hope this delightful condition fucks off posthaste. ::hugs::

Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
You have my great sympathy, Jennie. I suffered with this for quite a while a few years ago. In the end, it took an examination from a consultant cardiologist to pinpoint the problem. Even then he wasn't 100% sure. I sympathise - it's really scary. I did find that some really basic meditation did help, as well lying down and sleeping at odd times of the day. Just lying down, closing my eyes and concentrating on the pattern of the inside of my eyelids while I counted to ten slowly, helped. Sounds weird but it sort of acts as a "firebreak" after a busy period. It will pass. Knowing that, hopefully, might help....

Date: Monday, December 16th, 2013 07:11 pm (UTC)
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Date: Friday, December 13th, 2013 11:01 pm (UTC) was me, Paul Walter. Sadly I am not very good at logging in to comment on Bream thingemmy....:-)

Date: Saturday, December 14th, 2013 05:57 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] lilacsigil
My partner has the occasional bout of this: it originally started with massive asthma-related coughing, is now anxiety-related. It's scary and painful and I'm sorry to hear that you have it too! She finds exercise (have to be a lot gentler because of the costochondritis pain) and breathing exercises to be the best relief.

Date: Sunday, December 15th, 2013 12:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sashajwolf
*gentle hugs*

I have a meditation/visualisation technique that I've had some success with for traumatic memories, including the memory of the first time I was sexually assaulted. You don't have to recall the memory in detail, but you do have to be able to focus on the feelings it produces in you for at least a few minutes, so only try it if you think you can do that safely.

Basically, you take a bowl of salt water, call to mind the feelings that are associated with the memory, and imagine them pouring into the water like black gunk. Then you imagine the salt dissolving all the nastiness until the water is clear again. Finally you imagine the water filling with white light (moonlight or starlight, if you like), and you drink the water. Works a treat for me - that memory doesn't trigger me at all any more. I got it from a book on Wicca, but don't let that put you off ;-)

If the trigger's too strong to attempt something like this or the image rehearsal thing, and I understand why you wouldn't want to, then it probably does need more than amateur help, though I know what you mean about intimate acquaintance with a psychologist putting you off going to one ;-)

Date: Sunday, December 15th, 2013 04:27 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] el_staplador
That sounds thoroughly unpleasant. I am sorry to hear about it and I hope it clears up (if this is something that is posible) without delay.

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